Baby on hold?
Well, dh got a job offer yesterday. A GREAT, freaking fantastic job offer. With both our salaries, we will be able to pretty much do anything we want (w/in reason). But…I still want another baby. I’m so conflicted. I feel pressure from my body, which needs to be thinner but is getting older by the minute. I feel pressure about D, who is getting older and more like the typical only child every day. I feel pressure to contribute financially.
I really, really, really like my new job. And I can see it being the type of place that I could bring my baby to, at least for a few months, if I just ask the right people in the right way. For all intents and purposes, I had planned on staying here less than 2 years. But, it will be very very hard to give up this kind of money, especially with dh’s salary combined, and go back to the 1-car-stay-at-home-never-have-any-money kind of lifestyle we have been “enjoying” for the past 3 years.
I just don’t know.
Coltrane is doing well. He had the runs pretty badthe last couple of days, because I bought him dogfood when I ran out of raw. Need to find a good supplier…grocery store prices are killing me. He is a really sweet doggie and I’m so glad he’s in our lives!
Dh starts work next Monday so he has a whole week to love on D. Amber is supposedly moving down here w/in the next 3 wks to take over D’s full time care. We shall see how that goes! I’d really like him here with me all day. 
Does the mother guilt ever end?
