Moi

Hey there. I’m Rachel, a crazy chick who doesn’t do anything the right way. I’ve spent the last few years trying to unlearn how to fit in, after realizing that most people I know who do “fit in” are miserably unhappy.

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So what’s this place all about?

There’s lots of posts about rights…gay, minority , women’s, children’s …and they’ll rub some people the wrong way. Most of the posts have a “non-sheeple” element, as in thinking about why we go along with mainstream thought without questioning.

Lots of posts are about thinking for yourself, about not taking anyone’s word for it. That means your pastor, your husband, your teacher, your doctor. I believe in God intensely, but He’s no longer trapped in the evangelical box of my childhood. My biggest pet peeve is people who don’t question anything.

And then there’s the whining about two major subjects (three if you count the state I happen to reside in at the moment): fat and men.

September 2007 I had a weight loss surgery called the gastric lapband procedure. I’ve lost 45 pounds as of April 1, 2008, and couldn’t be happier with the progress. However, I won’t abide fat jokes or fat phobics here. I’m okay with people who are happy being fat. I don’t need to sway anyone to my POV on this one, as food is an intensely personal decision that’s more about control than health…in my opinion. I post lots of recipes and pictures about highly fattening food that pleases me. No lectures, please, about the importance of beets or salmon with omega 3 whatchamacallits.

In November 2007 I left my husband, who had emotionally, verbally, and occasionally physically abused me for our entire 9 year relationship. Now I’m making a new life with my little boy and our houn’dog — and figuring out what I want to be when I grow up. Someday maybe there’ll be a guy out there who can put up with my criteria and also happens to worship the ground I walk on. If not, that’s cool. I’m not settling again.

I don’t have all the answers, but I do have strong opinions. There’s a lot I don’t know, and I’m humbled by the events in my life that have changed my mind on so many things. God keeps teaching me, little by little, that I really don’t know that much. Thank you for being here and for reading. Please leave a comment for me if something strikes your fancy so I can feed my need for kudos. :)

Sincerely,
Rachel

6 Responses

  1. Rose Petrini Says:

    I really like your self-confidence. I am just now getting out of 24 years of a verbal/emotionally abusive relationship and marraige. This has done a toll on my self esteem, but on the other hand, I am now seeing that it was my lack of self-confidence that allowed me to stay in this place for so long. I found your website because I have been reading “Protector” journals on Dr. Irene verbal abuse site, the catbox. Thanks for your humor wit and wisdom…. Rose

    Posted on June 29th, 2008 at 2:11 pm

  2. Deborah Says:

    You ARE groovy.

    I love your site, bookmarked, and will follow your progress.

    I am still ‘in’ but trying to get a job, and I find your spirit inspirational towards my progress out.

    I wish you all the best.

    We should talk, I make Swarovski Havaiana’s up here in Canada, best out there. CUSTOMIZED!

    I thought they would accentuate your personality.

    Stay Strong!

    Deb

    Posted on July 20th, 2008 at 3:40 pm

  3. Debra Baker Says:

    I think you are lovely as yourself.

    I spent way too much of my teens, ’20’s, and ’30’s trying to fit in as some composite of our culture’s expectations.

    Forget about that, I’m learning how to be myself. Imagine what this world would be if more and more women rejected their prison cells in exchange for their authentic selves?!

    Posted on August 2nd, 2008 at 8:30 am

  4. marina Says:

    I admire you for your strength.We have only one life to live and we deserve the best.So fight for your life and your son’s life too. You ought it to your self.

    Posted on August 10th, 2008 at 2:49 pm

  5. Lola Starr Says:

    I FOUND YOU!

    MUAH!

    xoxo

    Posted on November 7th, 2008 at 1:38 pm

  6. BettyAnn Says:

    I like what you wrote…

    Hey there. I’m Rachel, a crazy chick who doesn’t do anything the right way. I’ve spent the last few years trying to unlearn how to fit in, after realizing that most people I know who do “fit in” are miserably unhappy.

    Posted on November 8th, 2008 at 9:18 pm

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